My name is Inna and I’m a passion-holic…

I have had a pretty hard time as of late finding not only things to write about, but the motivation for saying anything at all, hence, the silence.  Not sure if it would even be appropriate to apologize for it, but I do feel a tad guilty for letting my regular readers down, if you will.  I guess we all go through these ups and downs, inspiration-wise anyway, but some deal with the downs better than others.  I’m learning or trying to.  This lull of sorts has given me plenty of time to think and reflect on all things that matter or should, and what it is that actually drives us, or at least some of us, to action of any kind.

A bit of a back story, and a minor confession of sorts, if I may:

Our 19 year old, who last year got accepted into a pretty prestigious ocean engineering program at Florida Atlantic University decided after a really lousy freshman year that he wasn’t ready for school yet.  He couldn’t find the motivation to work towards something that was still as blurry as retirement in his head, and something that he realized his heart wasn’t really in.  He plays jazz piano and writes poetry.  He is not mechanically inclined, and although he’s always been decent in math, he never liked it.  In short, after the initial thrill of venturing on his own, he lost his will to work for something that was not important enough on its own terms…

passion is what drives us

image courtesy

If he stuck it out, he could have possibly made a reasonably decent engineer, but I feel that he would have been cheated of something in the process, which brings me to where my little company has been and what we are trying to recover from.

I love what I do for a living, but only when I do it exceptionally well.  The same goes for my better half and design arm of our little outfit.  After creating so many brands, logos, postcards and websites, and strategizing for so many different markets and personalities, we both found ourselves staring at our respective screens, blankly, and being rather unwilling to hit the keys (or Stylus in Jon’s case).  Being behind on the few projects during this creative blackout, I turned into a lousy boss, attempting to extract from my partner, who is by nature a perfectionist and for whom design is an art, a shippable product.

I’ve half assed a few blogs and bits of advice in various places for much the same reason.  I just felt that as uninspired as we both were, we needed to keep working, and so we did, or rather, we tried.  To put our clients at ease, none of it affects you, less maybe having to wait a bit longer for your various projects to be finished, but there was an unexpected lesson in all of this for yours truly: at times, we will just need a break to regroup, to feel inspired again to do great work, and we may be late in finishing one thing or another as a result, and that’s the worst that can happen, and that it is ok, if only because we are not going to sacrifice on the other more important aspect of what we do, the work itself.

A paycheck alone is an amazingly lousy motivator, at least for Jon and I, and no bonus or ability to make more money if only we worked faster would make up for being uninspired.  Our kiddo may have indeed made a reasonably good engineer, but he would have never been great at it, no matter how many hours he’d have to devote to it, and even a promise of a 170K salary upon graduating was not motivation enough, nor could it have been.

And so it is with us and this little business we birthed years ago. We started it because we were passionate about what we do and had a pretty great combo of skills for the tasks at hand.  We wanted to do great work, not just for the paycheck, but selfishly, because that makes us feel good.  That’s what keeps us digging and searching and creating.

So with humble apologies to my talented perfectionist husband and partner, from here on out, I am going to do my very best to worry less about the timelines and more about the work that we love and the passion that drives us to do it well.  In the end, I think our clients will understand…

Related Posts:

7 Responses to My name is Inna and I’m a passion-holic…
  1. Paul Reddam
    November 5, 2011 | 7:45 am

    Cant force the passion that’s required to do great things. In my experience passion, inspiration, whatever tends to to ebb and flow. Yours is strong – that’s clear from what I’ve seen of what you’ve built for past clients, it’s why you were an easy choice for me to make when I hired you. It’s also why I’m cool with waiting for your passion to flow again. No rush, no pressure. It’ll happen when it happens. All the best,

    • Inna Hardison
      November 7, 2011 | 7:43 pm

      Paul – thank you, thank you. So good to know that our clients ‘get us’:-)

  2. Teri Conrad
    November 3, 2011 | 11:30 pm

    You are so amazing, honest, raw and vulnerable. It is precisley for this reason that you are my true inspiration! Rob us of our passion and you’ve robbed us of our purpose! We all need to feel like the work we’re doing is meaningful and purposeful…I believe your son will find that – WITH your solid faith and strength and support! I too rely on it!

    • Inna Hardison
      November 7, 2011 | 7:44 pm

      Teri, you know you are far too nice to me. Can’t wait to meet you IRL some day:-) We’ll laugh and hug and I’ll undoubtedly do or say something silly:-) I hope you are right about the kiddo, truly.

      • Teri Conrad
        November 7, 2011 | 11:47 pm

        guaranteed! and yes…many laughs/hugs ahead! 🙂

  3. Lisa Heindel
    November 3, 2011 | 7:41 pm

    Inna, everything that you and Jon have done for me has been worth the wait. Do we all get anxious, crabby and push you to move faster, faster, faster? Sure…that’s the world we live in. Do it NOW, answer me NOW, get my site up and running in 24 hours but don’t forget to make it perfect.

    As long as the deadlines aren’t a make it or break it thing, I think that most of us understand that creativity needs a pause to refill.


    • Inna Hardison
      November 7, 2011 | 7:45 pm

      Sweet NOLA Lisa – thanks dahling, and here is to hoping that logo you are waiting on will be worth the wait:-) xoxo

Leave a Reply

Wanting to leave an <em>phasis on your comment?

Trackback URL